Random l33tness - I

Every thing can't always be the way i want it to be .
and Everything can also be the way i don't want it to be...
wats the difference.... nothing :P
No seriously...its kind of funny whn u see things like this happening...

Sometimes...i wish i was far away frm ppl ,away frm the center... devoid of any kind of attention...

Sometimes thn again i wish that i had ppl arnd me that i cld atleast talk to.....

Sometimes i wish i had i had the guidance and counseling of someone else...

Sometimes i wish ppl wld just shut up!!~

Sometimes i wish that i never understood anything and stayed in my ignorance forever...where i found bliss

Sometimes i wish i cld break open that stupid head of yours and KNOW wat u THINK ....

No seriously.... we all want so many things in life but do we really knw wat we want???
Or do our demands grow in excess as we keep getting things??
Why are we upset if we cannot get things in life...whn we knw that in every likely hood our attention, sooner or later wld be diverted to something "better" ??

Is that what the Buddhists call enlightenment??? the sate whn u do not want need or expect anything??
Sometimes (again)i think that wld be nice....but then again...wldn't that be BORING??
I mean if we dont have dreams aspirations hopes and desires thn what wld be the difference between us and a door knob??
Will it be really that good to be a door knob???
20 years of my life....and i knw....that i will always find something missing....no matter how much of my desires i can amass....or how much i wish for it....
Well actually i can already write down things or ppl that i will never have in my life
(Catherine Zeta Jones nuuuuuuuuuu~)

And if there is anything i try to do abt it ....well it might eventually happen but will the reason be worth the risk???

Guess i cant really predict how things will turn out....no matter how smart i think i am :P
cause humans r really complicated and annoying!!~
So till i am the supreme ruler of all knowledge ..which is not happening like TOMORROW :D
I have to keep hoping aspiring dreaming and..........
and i just realised ....
College has made me so JOBLESS!!~
O well... it atleast something that i have come to enjoy :D

Now where did that Milkybar go to :) :P